SuicidalPoet1986

Never thought you'd be the one take me feel this way You say you want me to be your husband, but yet i remain your last option I dont doubt that you've been with another man while you been gone Wish i didnt feel this way Cause the thoughts keep me up all night And im most positive ill once again have those nightmares tonight I remember when your voice could sooth me But now it just brings pain to my heart 1/14/13 5:16 am

My heart mourns and bleeds for you I just hope you dont let me bleed to death You really should hurry im startin to lose my breath See, i gave you my heart when we came into this But you must have forgot to attach it to your's I dont know how you missed all the blood on the floor I gave it away because i thought are love would soar But right now its giving me pain right to the core My heart always aches and my chest always hurts I mind as well just start digging my pile of dirt

ive never cut for attention, nor for ur sympathy strictly for the reason that it released the pain with in me i cant explain it but the blade against my skin wud send a rush through me the tearz wud simultaneously stop and at that moment thats all that matter cause i didnt wanna feel the pain the blood rushin down my arm was a relief of ever ounce of strain guess thats better then puttin one through my brain

The past and my scars remind that the pain wasnt fake But her kisses remind me everyday are love is real Forgive me now God cause if it came to protectin her i would kill Regret nor remorse would i feel I can honestly say i kno how true love feels So take take her from me and ill bring hell to the earth And my pain, hate, anger, and rage u would feel

The Way We Live: We all have our own little struggles; Pushing on forward as the tragedies double. A life led with pain and exhaustion too immense, I'm pushing down walls as my muscles go tense. But these are the words that you'll never hear me spit. I'd never say I'm 'giving up' or if I should 'quit'. I'm really freaking stupid so just tell it to my face, And even then I'd never give up the right to race. I'm like a lone arrow drawn and shot from a bow, Blustered by the winds of all the things I don't know. I'd never figure out if I'd reach the final mark, But I know that I'd never lose my glowing inner spark. And that's all it

I shan't tell you I can tell, I've seen heaven, I've seen hell. Blistered eyes and fingers,  I've felt pain. Seen the green fields softly roll, And the metal pierce a soul, Smiles and veils have always been the same. Welcome to the bleak fish bowl Celebrate your lonely soul Don't stay too long my eyesight tells me rain